Discovering Myself on Snapchat

Confession: I have recently become addicted to Snapchat. I don’t know how it happened, but it just did.

During my first few weeks of trying out the app, a million and one things would go through my head as I viewed my own snaps. Thoughts like:

Oh my gosh this is what my voice sounds like to other people?!

My intonation is all wrong! Do I really speak this way???

Should I be fixing my hair before I record a video?

Ooh, if I angle my head and the camera this way, I look thinner. Lol.

I must look silly to people who can see me doing this.

Nakakahiya ako! Ang tanda ko na, ngayon pako natuto nito!

I wonder if it matters that I don’t make an effort to look nice (as in, made up) in these videos?

I really am camera-shy.

That last thought perplexes me. I am camera-shy and I do have stage fright. It’s so bad that even when I’m asked to speak during meetings, I stumble. I get nervous whenever everyone’s attention is turned to me.

I get SUPER nervous whenever there’s a microphone in my hand, even if all I need to do is read VO spiels from behind the tech booth.


BUT, during regular conversations, when attention is drawn to me naturally, I’m totally fine. It’s so weird. I don’t understand why I function this way. I’ve always known that I would do better behind the scenes than in the spotlight, though, because of this. And so behind the scenes I have stayed.

Sayang (it’s a shame,) some people say, because I do have a lot to say. Most of the time the things that come out of my mouth make sense. I guess this is why I enjoy writing and blogging so much. I get to let those thoughts and opinions out without having to open my mouth.

Sayang, some people say, because I’m quite entertaining. Well, my humor is sarcastic and self-deprecating. It isn’t for everyone. So I try to keep my audiences small. As in friends and family only. I feel, though, that as I get used to this Snapchatting thing, I’ll start to seem less uptight there. At the moment, I’m still struggling to get over the actual sound of my voice.

Sayang, some people say, because I register well on-cam even though I’m a bit on the chubby side. To this, all I can say is HAHAHAHAHA. Yep, I may be plus-sized, but that never bothered me before. I’m not the type who will shy away from a camera because of the way I look. I don’t pretend to be thin. I know my angle, and because I’m a girl I sometimes choose to use it. I do love being me, and that’s a fact.

Even as a bride, I was awkward in front of the camera. This is why we had no prenup shoot, no on-the-day video, and only one, super-trusted photographer during our wedding.


It’s strange, but being on Snapchat has sort of helped me learn more about myself. I now have a better idea of how I sound to other people, and what my face looks like while I speak. I never realized that I made that many facial expressions. No wonder I’m able to piss people off so easily. Lol.

I also know that my days can be really dull. I wake up, have coffee, cook, drive. I get on the computer and write. I read a little, cook some more, then drive again. Most of my time is spent at home. When I actually go out, it’s to go grocery shopping or to the laundromat. Guys, do I need a life? Lol.

At the same time, I’m learning that I really like this life. It’s a far cry from what my days were like during my 20’s, especially when I still worked in events management. Everything was so exciting and fast-paced then. Now, things are slow, calm, and quiet. I like it, but some days it makes me feel old. And I know I’m not actually old.

Back when I was cooler.. Lol.


There are days when I sit and think about how I can make my snaps look more interesting. Of course I know that the answer is to actually go out and do something. Whenever I’m out, though, I don’t open Snapchat. Why not? Because I really fell like I look silly recording myself as I speak into my (huge) phone.

At the start of 2016, a friend shared that vlogging will soon kick blogging’s butt. I take this to mean that those of us who are more comfortable at writing rather than speaking our thoughts are in trouble. I guess that Snapchat, in this case, also works for me as a sort of trial phase, should I ever transition to posting videos.

At this moment, however, I can say that I am so not ready for it. But add me on Snapchat anyway. 😀

MrsPCuyugan on Snapchat


Have any of you guys shifted from blogging to vlogging or have you started to incorporate videos into your posts? How has the transition been for you? Is anyone else out there totally not camera-ready like me? 

About MrsC | Patricia Cuyugan

I am a happy mom and housewife. Outside of this, I'm also a writer, a crocheter, and a self-taught home cook. I'm part of a book club, and I enjoy binge-watching my favorite TV shows. I'm super entertaining on Instagram, Twitter and Snapchat! Follow me: MrsPCuyugan.

27 thoughts on “Discovering Myself on Snapchat

  1. I heard about Snapchat but never tried it yet. Ako din, camera shy! Not really a fan of making videos and all and feeling ko, I’ll get conscious. LOL

  2. I haven’t tried Snapchat yet. I’m really hesitant because it’s already a juggling act keeping up with FB, Instagram and Twitter. Funny thing, my daughter who’s running for PRO has joined a group that call themselves Snapchat!

  3. I’m not too comfortable too when I see a video of myself. Sayang, dream ko pa naman maging artista. LOL. But I thing blogs are still here to stay, so hang in there and keep writing.

  4. Snapchat is super fun! Especially the filters! I think it is addicting because of the fact that you can make fun of yourself have a video up for only 24 hrs with limited people seeing it.

  5. I’m very surprised to read that you didn’t get any pre-nup photos etc. because of how you felt in front of the camera. You’re so beautiful! Maybe you’re right, with snapchat you might be able to get a bit more confidence. 🙂

  6. I have never tried vlogging and probably never will unless I make a crochet tutorial so the focus will beon my hands hehe.I’m too cameraconsciousKudos to you for trying something new!

  7. Hahaha. I do not know how snapchat works. It’s just recently Lang that I joined Instagram. I do not have a Twitter either. I am too old Na siguro to understand those things. Even vlogging I don’t consider, though I enjoy watching one.

  8. I’ll see you in Snapchat Patty! I’m still making kapa the interface. I have no idea how to add friends or see who’s following me. And what are those trophies?? Haha! But you’re right! It’s fun!

    P.S. I miss reading your blog! Glad your updating more often na 🙂

  9. Yeah, I think I’ll be one of those left writing, haha. I tried doing a vlog a few months ago but I hated myself in it so much, I scrapped the entire idea and went back to writing. 🙂 Personally, I think writing has something else to offer that vlogs can’t. Such as that poetic spirit that we can only set free in written pieces. At times, the beauty in a piece is lost when spoken out loud.

  10. I’ve been hearing a lot about this but haven’t tried it yet. I feel that we’re so much alike when it comes to our nerves. I prefer writing to speaking. I tend to clam up also when asked to speak to an audience. For the sake of trying, I’ll download the app. Hihihi.

  11. Gosh, I don’t even know how Snap Chat works. Considering learning because of your post though. I have stage fright and I’m camera shy too!! I will add you in Snap Chat once I figure out how. Hahaha.

  12. I am never really into videos or recording myself because I think I looked weird or I don’t know what will I say. I don’t have this app yet though I tried downloading musicaly & dubsmash but deleted it after. Mas gusto kong vinivideo mga anak ko hehehe

  13. I’m new to SnapChat also but only because my daughter bullied me into getting one. Really, ang kulit nya. But it was nice looking at her videos so I’m sure she’s gonna ask me to make one soon …

  14. I downloaded snapchat before when i saw it at jennie epperson, ewan ko ba hindi ko talaga sya mahiligan… kaya i deleted it, but then nung mauso sa friends try ko sana ulit but i forgot na my account, i didn’t bother to download it again anyway. im fine with instagram na lang hahaha..

  15. Hi Patty! Grabe pinatawa mo ko with you post!!! Ako naman I don’t have an idea how snapchat works! My teenage daughter uses the app and maybe I should start asking her how to use it. Thank you for your insights, I sometimes feel like that being at home all the time that I don’t have a life. But you know what, you’re right, I like the slow, quiet and calm routine that we are blessed with as stay and work from home moms. Cheers to us girls on the chubby, but cute side! hahaha!

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