A is for Ambitious

I literally just glanced at the calendar and realized that in about a week, it will be February. Wow. Didn’t it feel like January just whizzed by so quickly? My days have been super full, and I guess that’s why time seems to have flown by so fast. Between taking care of the kiddo, spending as much time as I can with MrC while he’s home, my WAHM projects, and all the other things I’ve decided to take on, my plate is really quite full. In a good way, of course.

A is for Ambitious

I think a good way to put it is that I’m feeling ambitious this year. That’s a million and one times better than being overly laid back or lazy, right, because it means that I actually want to do something and be something more. Maybe it’s maturity (finally) kicking in, or maybe it’s my mind reacting positively to my new-found free time. Whatever it is, this is definitely a good thing. I am happy to see this ambitious version of myself again. She’s been in hiding for a few years, you see.

Funny how, now that I actually think about it, a strange encounter that I had a week ago really adds fuel to my desire to go down this path of enhancing myself. I shared that story on my newsletter last Monday, and I would love to share it with you now in case you haven’t read it yet. I have a favor to ask though, in exchange. Please sign up for my newsletter (here) so that you can get access to the stories I will be sharing there. I would like to think I’m more honest and candid on the newsletter, so those are gonna be good reads. I promise to send you a copy of that strange encounter via email, just let me know in the comments if you’ve subscribed. Thanks in advance! πŸ™‚

Ok, where was I…

B is for Brave

I don’t think that a person can be ambitious without having at least a little bit of bravery. It does take courage to chase after your dreams, after all, especially if this means venturing into things that are new and unfamiliar. It also takes courage to admit that you aren’t as good as you think you are at something, and it’s always the acceptance of that fact that sends you out in search of improvement. So, what exactly is it that I am set to improve on this year? My list is pretty long, and growing by the day!

I want to become a better writer. To me that means improving the structure of my articles and blog posts, improving my sentence construction, and building my vocabulary. It means writing in a tone that’s fun to read, conversational and easy to understand. It also means creating a good flow, from beginning to middle to end, in anything and everything that I write. Finally, it means going beyond what I’m already writing, which are blog posts, SEO articles, and scripts and speeches, and taking that bold step towards what I really dream about writing – stories.Β Yup, I am a storyteller by nature (one conversation with me will show you what I mean), and ultimately I want to write stories. Now let me tell you, this is something that I am genuinely afraid of failing at.

It took me a couple of years before I became comfortable calling myself a writer. When I left my job to pursue writing, I remember being genuinely afraid of failing, too. It took time, tweaking and lots of learning, and now I am happy to say that I am a writer. If I had let the fear stop me, then I would never have succeeded at this dream. That’s why now, I am happy to be feeling that little bit of terror at the thought of going for another huge dream. Because I know that it means that much to me. Because I know that I want to succeed. And because I know that fear can be overcome.

Becoming a fiction writer is only number one on my crazy list, but it’s probably the most important one to me, as a person. For our family, I really would like to start organizing our stuff and our lives in preparation for when we have our own place. I hate cleaning, I really do, but I know that I need to start somewhere. My baby steps include making the bed every morning, sorting out and putting away the clean laundry at least once a week, tidying up (a little), and learning to discard and throw away unnecessary things. I know that to most people, these are all normal, regular, every day chores. Well, to me they aren’t yet. But hey, I’m trying. Really, really, really.

C is for Confident

My self-confidence, I think, is something that doesn’t need improvement. There are times when I actually feel like I have too much of it for my own good. Like when it comes to my weight, for example. You won’t see me crying over the fact that I gained a few pounds or my old clothes don’t fit. While that’s a good thing, I still see it as a little bit of a problem because I tend to use it as an excuse to not eat better or move more. I don’t think that I need to lose weight to feel good about myself. Not a lot of people can understand or believe that, but it’s true. I was born chunky, and I feel comfortable being chunky. I can jump, dance, kick and run (when needed – I hate running in a busty girl kind of way). I don’t see my weight as a disability. But I do know that I need to be healthy for my self and for my loved ones.

I have been doing a little bit better as far as that goes, though. I’ve been exercising a little, thanks to my mom and her Kinect obsession. I’ve been eating more fruits and vegetables. The battle against sweets and bread will never be won, but I’ve at least been trying to cut back. I haven’t had a cigarette in years. I’ve also learned to drink less at social gatherings. My skin and hair seem to be thanking me for this change, they’re looking and feeling healthier. Maybe in time, my waistline will respond too. Whether or not it does, I’m happy just knowing that my levels are all normal, that I’m not sick or sickly, and that I’m basically healthy as a horse. A chubby, colorful horse. Or can I be a unicorn instead?

Those, I think, are the major things on my list. There are smaller goals too, like reading more books. I joined the 2014 Reading Challenge on Good Reads, and I’m honestly behind on my goal, but catching up. Just this morning, I decided to join the 2014 Moogly Crochet-a-Long. I’m enrolled in 3 CourseraΒ classes, 2 Skillshare classes, and my first ever fiction writing class. I am working at becoming a better blogger too, with the help of the Write on Workshops and the WordPress Workshops by my fellow WAHMs. I want to start a travel scrapbook for me and the boys. I want to learn calligraphy and watercolor painting, sewing and quilting, and so many other things. There’s a lot to do, I know, but I’m up for the challenge.

What are your ambitions for 2014 and beyond?

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About MrsC | Patricia Cuyugan

I am a happy mom and housewife. Outside of this, I’m also a writer, a crocheter, and a self-taught home cook. I’m part of a book club, and I enjoy binge-watching my favorite TV shows. I’m super entertaining on Instagram, Twitter and Snapchat! Follow me: MrsPCuyugan.

25 thoughts on “A is for Ambitious

  1. Wow. Me too. I’m in this stage of wanting more from me. I want to strive for more and learn as much as I can. I’m getting my hands at photography and trying to learn things on my own. I do want to improve my writing too and a lot of things about blogging but unlike you, I’m a bit shy with people. haha.

    Let’s keep learning. Cheers for a better us this 2014!!

  2. I was already way too ambitious last year. Haha! This year I really plan on becoming more laid back. That’s why my One Word is ZEN. πŸ™‚ But I can totally relate to being scared to say you’re a writer. I’m still scared of saying it sometimes. That’s also why I feel so much pressure in starting AND finishing my novel. Maybe after I’ve accomplished that I will no longer feel scared to say I’m a writer.

  3. It’s good to hear that you have such a positive and pleasant perception about your weight. This is something that the whole world has to learn. I really hate people gauging a woman’s worth by how she appears. If someone strives to keep herself trim, it should be for the purpose of keeping herself healthy and not to keep up with the society’s stereotyping.

  4. Baliktad tayo. I want to be more laidback naman this year because I have been sooo ambitious — too ambitious — in the past two years. I took on a lot of projects (earned a lot too), attended loads of events, blogged almost every day… at the expense of spending time with the family. So for 2014, my goal is to be more laidback; to spend time where it should be spent most. πŸ™‚

  5. Hi Pat! I sure could relate with you on sweets and bread! You write pretty well and I hope to read more of your stories. I need to improve my style. I feel like mine is gloomy. Hehe! I am subscribing now. πŸ™‚

  6. Pat! I can relate lalo na with ‘C’! I had great plans but then we got pregnant naman. So I can expect to gain more weight pa. After I give birth talaga (wishing and praying we do it normal this time), I plan on loosing it all.

  7. I so understand what you’re saying about January whizzing by without us knowing it…I feel so “busy” I want to un-busy myself and focus on the goals my heart are crying out for.

    Love yours, by the way, and though I think you already write in an easy-to-read, conversational matter, yeah, there’s always room to be better, so I’m with you on that. Let me just jot that on my list as well, along with getting healthy…;)

    Thank you for writing this, you just reminded me to get my act together! πŸ™‚

  8. syempre super relate ako sa wanting to be a better writer πŸ™‚ why is it that the most interesting ones I know, those whose work I want to read more of, are the ones who are uncomfortable owning up to the title “writer”? And yet it’s this hesitation & “insecurity” (if you will) that makes a writer, or any artist for that matter, so much more compelling at their craft. Parang it keeps them on their toes. But you shouldn’t let the fear take over, either, or else kakainin ka ng takot, haha! So it’s a balancing act, I guess.

    Here’s to ambitiousness, bravery, & confidence!

    1. I agree, it really is a balancing act. You need the fear and uncertainty because it makes things challenging. But you also need to overcome it otherwise it does paralyze you. Here’s to perfecting that balancing act! πŸ™‚

  9. Nice points, emphasizing A for Ambitious- this is always my key in getting more improvements in relation with blogging. I always set goals to be reached every week. I would like to be one of those blogs who created signatures (brand).. Thanks for sharing your thoughts

    1. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, too! I think it does all start with ambition, right? I agree with you that it’s important to have your own signature “brand” for your blog. That’s actually one of the things that we learned about at the Write On Workshops last year πŸ™‚

      Good luck on achieving your goals!

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