And so it is…
I always said that if I ever got pregnant again, I’d quit my job. I remember my first pregnancy, how lazy I was, how irritable, how all I wanted to do was eat, sleep and watch TV. I know how I can get, and I have absolutely no intention of making myself suffer through a 9-hour work day, cooped up in an office under those circumstances. It’s probably best for those around me too, as I’d be sensitive about smells, food, cleanliness, and I’d basically nitpick on everything. In an extra bratty way.
When I left Smart a little over a year ago, I didn’t expect I’d be going through the same emotional struggle of leaving for at least another two years. Guess I was wrong, as I now find myself facing my last 3 weeks at Filinvest. I am choosing to take the road less traveled, and will officially brand myself as a Work-At-Home-Mom and a Mompreneur by May 20. The choice to pursue this career path is largely my own, influenced by many different factors, the obvious being the need and desire for me to be more hands-on in raising the little guy. I’d also like to give my mom her freedom back. Super Lola has been the primary caregiver of my little bundle of joy for the past five years, and I think it’s time I took him off her hands. After all, she already gave up 29 years of her life for us, raising my siblings and I without yayas, managing our household, and feeding us well (as my waistline will prove). It’s time for her to have more time to play golf, play mahjong, play Farmville, have her hair done, hang out with my dad, travel. Plus, it’s time for me to take charge of molding my son into the kind of person I want him to be. Time for me to prepare baon for my husband, coffee in the morning, dinner at night. Time for me to focus on homework and school projects. Time for me to have a flexible schedule where I can allot more time for the people I care about.
It’s something I want. And I want it enough to give it a try. And I’m keeping my fingers, toes, arms, legs and eyes crossed that I will succeed, and that this will be the start of a better life for all of us.
I’ve been enviously following blogs of successful Filipina WAHMs since early this year, and I must say that they have played a big part in influencing my decision, without them even knowing it. Among the WAHM/Mompreneurs, my favorites are Dainty Mom and OC Mom In Manila. I keep telling myself that if they can do it, I can do it too, and I’ll never know until I try. So this is officially my first step towards “giving it a try”, my leap of faith, me reaching for the stars. Sabi nga nila, lakas loob lang naman ang kailangan sa simula. You just have to hope you have skills and/or talents to keep you afloat, and I’d like to think that I do have what it takes to make it.
Besides, like I told my husband, if it doesn’t work out, then we go into Plan B and I look for another job. But for now, this is, as they say, it. Ball’s in my court. Let’s do this, Universe.
Oh by the way, I’m not pregnant. I just wasn’t sure how to start this post.